My name is Cindy not Ella

 My name is Cindy I am not a princess or Queen. Most people think I am living in an imaginary fairy tale. Cinderella is not my name nor my fantasy. I am just plain old loving, caring Cindy. I marry a man but after I tell you the facts about my life and my story you will think I married Prince Charming. I come home from a hard day's work to a home where diner is fully prepared, house clean, laundry washed, put away, and the kids are already completed their homework. You would never imagine this man that does the things for me is black, intelligent, a hard worker, caring and loving. He reminds me of a Mandingo Warrior. He can handle the battles in the field, he knows how to claim his territory, and he comes home to receive the best of the best, his very own refuge. Wait ladies, I was not writing this to talk about him, but to help you explore your most intimate fantasy. Cindy is the lady next door to you. She is the women with  high intelligence, she works hard, she is a mother, a wife, and  women of strong convictions. She knows how to organize, plan, balance and control the money. She feels sometimes less confident because she is so busy doing for others that she forgets about herself and her desires.

All women share the same story they want more from the man. More sex, more money, more compassion, respect, more of him. how can we get more from him if we can give more of ourselves. God demands much but we give so little and sometimes it seems as though we receive little. Whom do we worship? Our Mandingo Warrior or God? I love God more than life itself. I love my man almost as much, the love is not natural, and I was not born with this feeling. I studied the word Agape. Agape means unconditional, no boundaries, not because he makes me feel like...... God gave his precious son for this sinful world. Worthy is not on our terms, but on the creator's terms. They kick, spit, beat him, and he bared it all for us. Worthy is the lamb, not for us goddess who want to be treated like some imaginary fairy tale. Your fairy begins the day your Prince Charming discovered you. You put on your best. Makeup was unflawed, hair perfect, nails together, and dressed to impressed. Who are you? Are you Cindy or Ella?