TRANSPARENCY
Transparency seems to hurt people around you, but let me tell you the truth about the transparent person who loves deep and falls hard. To be transparent, you open yourself up for ridicule and criticism, sad to say it does not feel so good to be criticized because you were open and honest. Well, I am learning a big lesson in life everyone does not need to know your deepest innermost pain. I find opening up and let the pain escape feels so good, but the repercussions of that pain do dissipate. It grows as an infection and creates wounds from deep within.
I never wanted to be invisible because I knew my visibility would reach deep into the soul of the person I touched. As a child, I remember being so visible I was forced to hide. My seclusion was like being captivity on the ship. It was so hard for me to understand why I could not share God with the people around me. So I escaped to an imaginary world. I created my own circle and what I thought my life should be. I held the hands of the homeless and the people that no one wanted to be near.
Even a child transparency can open them up for the worse of the worse. I was an artist. I have not shared this with many people, but at the age of five my art teacher seems to be the only person that believed in me. Mr. Evans would send my artist creations to competition and I never even received anything except a ribbon of first place. My mom never even took me to see the display and no one even asked me how I felt about all my art work being displayed on the walls at the school. I said this to say sometimes you can put your heart in soul into something for it to be judged and you have no idea what they are saying.
I stopped working as an artist a very long time ago because I found an alternate escape releasing my pain and I did not think the rewards of my work was worth the pain of judgments. So I married an artist. I encourage him to do his thing and I am so proud of him. This journey is not easy but well worth every minute.
I am transparent, a women that you can trust, loyal, and if my transparencies causes you to judge me Let me help you to see beyond the surface. My opening up is only to help you understand that truth sets you free and the pain shared maybe a similarity to the pain you are holding through.
OJB
I never wanted to be invisible because I knew my visibility would reach deep into the soul of the person I touched. As a child, I remember being so visible I was forced to hide. My seclusion was like being captivity on the ship. It was so hard for me to understand why I could not share God with the people around me. So I escaped to an imaginary world. I created my own circle and what I thought my life should be. I held the hands of the homeless and the people that no one wanted to be near.
Even a child transparency can open them up for the worse of the worse. I was an artist. I have not shared this with many people, but at the age of five my art teacher seems to be the only person that believed in me. Mr. Evans would send my artist creations to competition and I never even received anything except a ribbon of first place. My mom never even took me to see the display and no one even asked me how I felt about all my art work being displayed on the walls at the school. I said this to say sometimes you can put your heart in soul into something for it to be judged and you have no idea what they are saying.
I stopped working as an artist a very long time ago because I found an alternate escape releasing my pain and I did not think the rewards of my work was worth the pain of judgments. So I married an artist. I encourage him to do his thing and I am so proud of him. This journey is not easy but well worth every minute.
I am transparent, a women that you can trust, loyal, and if my transparencies causes you to judge me Let me help you to see beyond the surface. My opening up is only to help you understand that truth sets you free and the pain shared maybe a similarity to the pain you are holding through.
OJB
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